Rule#1 - Philip Town

Recently I finished read a book given to me by a dear friend. Really good book. It talks about how to calculate a business's financial status, and whether it is worth it to invest in today. The bargain price to go in, and the expensive price to get out.

I have learnt the most of value investing from this book then any other book actually. And its simple and easy to to do the calculations. :)

Relationships - making it more fun

About half a year ago, I was in really bad relationship situation.. we were in really bad shape, both of us were angry with each other, one passive aggressive and one aggressive - I think anyone in relationships would know what it means right?

Meaning I was the angry one and getting angry and I was not getting any response from him (passive aggressive). Which in turn makes things worse.. because we were getting angry with one another, but it was never solved and everything just keep snowballing. And we grew more distant from one another, and it just became worse and worse.

To the point where I would be crying.. and he would just ignore me completely.
Is this a relationship that I would want to salvage? Yes and no.

I really wonder why I am in such bad relationships for such a long time, and I begin to look outward for solutions. At this time, I also unknowingly started my spiritual journey to find out about people, energies and also what I am lacking (it takes courage to admit, but I do realized that I am lacking quite a bit in the feminine department).

And oh boy, that was SOME journey.
And its still continuing.

This was part of my journey:

http://ef7fdwk7zdx6bz3d2pzjq4zymy.hop.clickbank.net/?tid=BEERISHBLOG

I came upon this website by chance. At that point of time I was thinking.. "Another internet gimmick that takes my money and gives me nothing."

But then again, another thought came to mind. I practically spent my whole life in disastrous relationships.. no harm spending some money to find out what I am lacking.. anyways I buy clothes and all spend hundreds of dollars, to decorate my body - and still have disastrous relationships. So why not try something new, something that goes inwards me, so that I can learn how to create wonderful relationships?

"Okie. Maybe I just try 1 time. $47usd. If its no good, I'm outta the internet products world."

Oh surprised! This guy actually is brutally honest! And the emails he sent out after I purchased the products are really enlightening! I realized how silly I was sometimes. And he is really good. The answers that he emails back to the questions he get from his subscribers. I really learnt a lot from him.

Not all internet products are gimmicks after all. Apparently some of them really do make a lot of sense. And taught me a lot of things. The program is interesting. But to me the most interesting thing is the emails that Mike sends out after that. A lot of question and answers, and I really really get to hear from a honest guy point of view.

Its really enlightening. Really. I cant post it out here because I could be fringing on his rights to his own products. But I do recommend girls who get confused about guys to get this. Its definitely worth more then the $47usd tag. :)

After this one, I saw another one. Since Micheal Fiore is a guy, I thought that it would be interesting to hear from a female perspective. And the first one was a good buy obviously. So I wanted to try another one and learn more. For this, I will post in another blog. :)

The Middle Way

Hi there.. I haven't been updating this blog recently. Been really busy catching up with everything and also dealing with my confusions as well...

The middle way.

The other day I had the sudden thought. I saw a really fat person and quite small feet. Poor feet, that has to support that amount of weight everyday, 24/7. So too fat causes too much weight that is bad for the feet. Okok. So let's lessen it by half.. So the lesser the body weighs the better it is for the legs. But then again... If the body is too thin, it becomes malnutrition. The feet doesnt have the strength to carry its body. So the body cannot be too thin and cannot be too fat. It has to be just right, in order for the feet to function properly.. The Middle Way... Wow.. Our body itself is a great example of it. Our whole life, we are constantly learning to balance our body. Not too fat, not too thin, not too hot, not too cold. Not too hungry not too full.. 

 I didn't realized until now, that our body has been teaching us the middle way ever since we were born. Something that we see, touch and feel everyday.. But we don't have the wisdom to recognize it. 

Buddha is so amazingly wise when he pointed out - The Middle Way. 3 simple words. Amazing wisdom. Truly amazing. Wow.

AsiaWorks - Basic Training Course - Day 2

I just had my second day of training. It was very good. Very empowering and more powerful then the first day. If I can spare the cash, I want to go to the Advance training... However... right now my funds are really important for me to reach my goals this year end - $500 dividends per month.

I was so tired when I reach home after the course yesterday, that my eyes were stinging my red. Thus I did not eat the beancurd that my boyfriend gave me. After he sent me back and left, I was already lying on the bed, wanting to fall asleep immediately, but I thought that I should send a thank-you message to him.

"But I'm so tired... " I think. "I really don't want to move an inch. Maybe it'll be okay if I say thank you tommorrow.."

Suddenly I recall back to the speaker where he empowers us and that we have full responsibility of our own life choices, so with one summoning of strength, I decided to climb back up, and sent him a thank-you message. I decided to take up the responsibility of nuturing this relationship to a fantastic one. This is the power of taking up responsibility/ownership. I've taken my first little step. Hopefully I can constantly remind myself.

"I have full responsibility of my life choices."

What a wonderful world! :)

AsiaWorks - Basic Training Course - Day 1

Yesterday I just attended a course call Basic Training Course. Sounds ambiguous right? LOL.

Well, honestly when I attended the course yesterday I did not know what the course was all about. Even though I already paid $1300 for it! LOL.

I met a fren about 2 weeks ago for catch up coffee and I pleasantly found out that he was going through the same inner balancing phrase as I did since last year (we havent caught up for a long while... perhaps a year plus?). He started abit earlier then me though. Well, anyways, he saw that I'm also in this phrase, and he keep suggesting that I attended this course. Hell, I filled in the objectives form at the back, then he turn the sheet around for me to fill in my particulars! Hahaha. That's how excited he was. And he has been through all of the 3 courses. Basic, Advanced, and Leadership.

Interestingly, the speaker talks about limiting subconscious beliefs and there was this lady who stood up to say that she would not be able to attend the course due to a lot of work. So he asked her if she would be open to attend it if she has the chance to, and she say she would consider but now is not possible because she has so much work. While he was empowering her to make the choices neccesary for attending this course, she got angry and said that she dont have a choice and considering the attendance for the course is out of the question. While he try to empower her more, she said she cant do anything about it because she said that she is her bosses's bitch. NOW, Gene (the speaker) definitely knows that there is problem in that belief... I saw it too.. And Gene continued to grill her and empower her, saying that she can find a way to deal with it. Maybe there really was not a way out of her work. Or maybe she can prioritise her work to fit in the course. Either way, if she really wants to, she will. But she got angry (she was already angry from the beginning.) and started to accuse Gene of judging her (hey... she was the first one to say she was someone else's bitch ya know.. if you dont want others to judge you, you don't say that of yourself first!) and Gene abruptly stopped the conversation short and ended it. Later when those who cannot attended the course she stood up quickly and made the administration to quit the course.

Actually its a pity and I feel that, even though she actually needs this course very much (she was actually believing she is her bosses bitch -now that is some serious subconscious belief to deal with) but she is not ready for this change yet. Or rather, she wants to continue to be her bosses bitch. Which is quite apparent, as she is giving all reasons why she should continue in this situation. Its a very self-abusive, negative situation. I dont want to be in that situation. I want to empower myself and be empowered. That needs me to be open and vunerable in order to progress.

My goal: To be strong and firm yet soft. What does it take to reach there? To be this person that I want to be. It would need me to have strong inner voice. I need to let it out. Without that acertainity of inner know self, I cannot be strong and firm about the daily desicions in my life. Inner knowself will also help me to be soft because I know my own self worth and what Im willing to give out. So when I am soft, I am honestly genuine about it.

Stocks - Fragrance

Bought Fragrance at 0.495 (4 lots) due to insider news (although I know that when I bought in I'm alrady late but just wanted to try out the insider news) but after AGM on 3rd July it didnt go up.

So sold it off again at 0.495 losing on trading fees only. Im taking this test to insider news as a failed attempt.
Oh well.

Strange dream

I had a dream this morning, it was a strange dream.

A guy wanted to bring me to the netherworld, and to talk to the guardian of hell there, like the book of life, and say that my fate should be changed, because I did not do much bad deeds this lifetime.

And the guy say that they make mistakes all the time, and my fate will be reset to a better one in the future.
I woke up feeling weird and at the same time happy. Hehe.

Coincidentally, I signed up for a AsiaWorks course just yesterday, on 4th July 2012. US Independence Day. I think I must be an angmo last life. LOL.

Maybe its a sign that a good change is coming. :)))