Emergence of the Divine Child

Right now I'm reading this book, Emergence of the Divine Child. Maybe this book is what I really need now, to put my perspective back into order. In this chaos and emotional ride, I know a new change is coming, and a big final one. 

Although life's lessons will never finish, I know with this I will cross a boundary that I have never cross before. And with excitement I wait. :) 

Relax and energy meditation

I chanced a very nice paragraph in Barbarajian. 

"Relax your body and clear your mind. Imagine a pillar of light flowing through your body and sending light fibers into Earth.

Picture these fibers being pulled down into Earth, moving through dirt and worms and other creatures, and passing through layers of soil, rock, water, minerals, crystals, and gold. Your fibers are going down very far. They are looking for a vein of gold, so continue to send them down until you feel that the taproot of your fibers has touched a vein of gold deep, deep in Earth - an ancient vein. Notice what it feels like.

Gold transmits a certain frequency. It is very deeply connected with the force and vibration you describe as love, the connective energy that supports all things. The gold and crystals inside Earth move this consciousness through Earth like your veins move blood through your body. Many creatures know about these veins and use them.

Do a very low, deep toning into the fibers of light that extend into Earth. Rumble and stabilize the light, sending energy along the vein of gold so that it travels around a core layer of Earth. Know that your sound is going to stabilize something deep within the core of Earth. Even in her heart, Earth will always recognize you and know who you are.

Once you have stabilized the taproot, create a higher pitched toning to extend a dome of light above where you are. This dome is an umbrella of energy under which you are currently being inspired. Picture a violet-blue twilight tone inside the dome, which is being showered with white moonlight on the outside.

Everything that you think, you energize into form.

So please, dear friend, free yourself from burdens and re-imagine Earth as a splendid place within existence. See yourself dwelling in harmony amidst the splendor."

Everything happens for a reason.

There are 3 sides to each story, yours, mine and the Truth.

 

Four Face Buddha in Bangkok

I'm now sitting right in front of the famous Four Face Buddha in Bangkok. And I remember my dad saying that Four Face Buddha like to see women dance.. And strip naked to dance.. Previous years I will go to Four Face Buddha here to pray. As I got my wish granted many years ago. So I always pray and respect. But this year I did not. I prayed and give thanks with my palm and sit aside to think while my friends are praying. 

"How come a Buddha would have such desires to see naked woman dance?"

And while sitting there, I realised that Buddhas and Boddisativas manifest and correspond according to humans thoughts, wishes and desires. Thus it's not the Four Face Buddha that's has desires but the people of Thailand that strongly has and need such a Buddha to have faith with.

Dementia

We have to learn to protect our minds. Prolong worry, anger and anxiety can easily lead to dementia in our old age.

I watch my father and am worried about him. Chanting and meditation is difficult to penetrate his mind. Let's hope I find a way to help him soon. Perhaps spending more time with him, guiding him to clear his mind could be the best thing I can do.

Buddha's lifetime - was I there?

While I was reading a book just now about counseling, I had a sudden thought.. Spiritually I'm quite inclined, had I been incarnated for countless times, since Buddha was here? Was I there already with the many monks that were following Buddha? And immediately I had another "answer". Yes I was already there. And was a high monk that was following Buddha, but pride made me fail. I think there is lust too, but primary is pride that stopped my liberation. 

This lifetime I should take note and carefully subdue my pride. Have understanding of why it arises and how to neutralize it. 

Disagreement - is it so important?

Why do we have to agree with someone to like someone? Why does disagreement with other people and our "ego-self" coz us to distance away from people we disagree? Is the "self" so all important that it actually overrides harmony?

Career Guidance :)

These few nights I have been a bit confused because I'm lost in my job, so I asked for guidance before I sleep on my career path. I have always wanted to do counseling psychiatrist work but have no clue on how to start in it. Some things disappointing in my work happened, And I lost interest in my work. I began to clear my old personal email. By chance I came upon a basic counseling course set up by my teacher. It happened the last day to register. So being disappointed in my work place, I decided that I might as well try this basic counseling class. Plus just coincidence, I saw one vid of Jim Carrey - "If you can fail at what you don't want to do, you might as well fail at what you want to do." Coz that seems to be happening in my life anyways.

Today I'm suppose to go to my mom's dinner as I promised her couple of weeks ago. I did as my mom if I can skip out on the dinner but cannot. A week ago I heard about a virus that spread in hospital. And Ashton also have pneumonia and Daniel want to visit Ashton so I decided not to meet my parents just in case the virus spread. Since I'm free so I ended up going to the basic counseling class anyways as I din visit Ashton yet. So by strange round of coincidences I actually managed attended the first basic class.

Thinking back, I think the prayers before I sleep must be taking effect and gently guiding and nudging me to the right path. I'm truly really blessed and happy to receive guidance always. :)