AsiaWorks - Basic Training Course - Day 1

Yesterday I just attended a course call Basic Training Course. Sounds ambiguous right? LOL.

Well, honestly when I attended the course yesterday I did not know what the course was all about. Even though I already paid $1300 for it! LOL.

I met a fren about 2 weeks ago for catch up coffee and I pleasantly found out that he was going through the same inner balancing phrase as I did since last year (we havent caught up for a long while... perhaps a year plus?). He started abit earlier then me though. Well, anyways, he saw that I'm also in this phrase, and he keep suggesting that I attended this course. Hell, I filled in the objectives form at the back, then he turn the sheet around for me to fill in my particulars! Hahaha. That's how excited he was. And he has been through all of the 3 courses. Basic, Advanced, and Leadership.

Interestingly, the speaker talks about limiting subconscious beliefs and there was this lady who stood up to say that she would not be able to attend the course due to a lot of work. So he asked her if she would be open to attend it if she has the chance to, and she say she would consider but now is not possible because she has so much work. While he was empowering her to make the choices neccesary for attending this course, she got angry and said that she dont have a choice and considering the attendance for the course is out of the question. While he try to empower her more, she said she cant do anything about it because she said that she is her bosses's bitch. NOW, Gene (the speaker) definitely knows that there is problem in that belief... I saw it too.. And Gene continued to grill her and empower her, saying that she can find a way to deal with it. Maybe there really was not a way out of her work. Or maybe she can prioritise her work to fit in the course. Either way, if she really wants to, she will. But she got angry (she was already angry from the beginning.) and started to accuse Gene of judging her (hey... she was the first one to say she was someone else's bitch ya know.. if you dont want others to judge you, you don't say that of yourself first!) and Gene abruptly stopped the conversation short and ended it. Later when those who cannot attended the course she stood up quickly and made the administration to quit the course.

Actually its a pity and I feel that, even though she actually needs this course very much (she was actually believing she is her bosses bitch -now that is some serious subconscious belief to deal with) but she is not ready for this change yet. Or rather, she wants to continue to be her bosses bitch. Which is quite apparent, as she is giving all reasons why she should continue in this situation. Its a very self-abusive, negative situation. I dont want to be in that situation. I want to empower myself and be empowered. That needs me to be open and vunerable in order to progress.

My goal: To be strong and firm yet soft. What does it take to reach there? To be this person that I want to be. It would need me to have strong inner voice. I need to let it out. Without that acertainity of inner know self, I cannot be strong and firm about the daily desicions in my life. Inner knowself will also help me to be soft because I know my own self worth and what Im willing to give out. So when I am soft, I am honestly genuine about it.