Disagreement - is it so important?

Why do we have to agree with someone to like someone? Why does disagreement with other people and our "ego-self" coz us to distance away from people we disagree? Is the "self" so all important that it actually overrides harmony?

Career Guidance :)

These few nights I have been a bit confused because I'm lost in my job, so I asked for guidance before I sleep on my career path. I have always wanted to do counseling psychiatrist work but have no clue on how to start in it. Some things disappointing in my work happened, And I lost interest in my work. I began to clear my old personal email. By chance I came upon a basic counseling course set up by my teacher. It happened the last day to register. So being disappointed in my work place, I decided that I might as well try this basic counseling class. Plus just coincidence, I saw one vid of Jim Carrey - "If you can fail at what you don't want to do, you might as well fail at what you want to do." Coz that seems to be happening in my life anyways.

Today I'm suppose to go to my mom's dinner as I promised her couple of weeks ago. I did as my mom if I can skip out on the dinner but cannot. A week ago I heard about a virus that spread in hospital. And Ashton also have pneumonia and Daniel want to visit Ashton so I decided not to meet my parents just in case the virus spread. Since I'm free so I ended up going to the basic counseling class anyways as I din visit Ashton yet. So by strange round of coincidences I actually managed attended the first basic class.

Thinking back, I think the prayers before I sleep must be taking effect and gently guiding and nudging me to the right path. I'm truly really blessed and happy to receive guidance always. :)

Luxury bags ands it's situations

"Finding that coveted designer bag is something people brag about and others evny, like finding the golden ticket in "Charlie and the Golden Factory.""

If one is still enough, one can see that neither bragging nor envy is a balanced way of thinking. Why would anyone want to be bragging- over the balance tip, envy, lesser then the balance tip? Either way, it's not good virtues to be either one. Both are not good places to be.

Such are the weird behavior of humans and their ego. These qualities will show out, or they will be attracted to, when their inner being is not balanced. Such display of behavior, is a way to detect and to correct. But it can only be done thru understand and mostly (from what I experienced) meditation of the mind. 

This is why meditation is so important, because it can see all the blind spots that we normally can't. 

Songs and people of the time

As one night I listened to the radio, I did it my way by Frank Sinatra, I marveled at the true and deep emotional tune by the song. Really, nowadays one can hardly hear such beautiful songs from today's era. Then suddenly I realised the connection from the inner quality of the people that would shine out into the exterior. This is exactly what it meant by your inner thoughts will reflect out in your exterior. It's the same with one person as with one people, one nation, one era, and one planet. The planet, along with the inhabitants thoughts, will grow and change as well. 

Past life regression

Last sat I did a session of emotional release by Ida and kyru. My intention for the session was to release any trapped emotions still left in my body (especially my shoulders coz it's always aching). When it got to the last part, Kyru came out with a Brian Weiss audio of past life regression. I have always been interested in my past life, namely towards my husband and why we have such karma as we have now, but I told myself that whatever comes that is important to me I will recieve it. When the audio started, it said there was a lot of different mirrors, meaning our many different past lives. One of them stood out.. I looked down on my shoes as suggested in the audio, and I saw a black pair of clothe shoes, like the Chinese olden shoes. And my clothes were of the outmost white, silky chiffon. Not a single stain on was my clothes. It was flawless white. I almost look like a saint of some sort, or a saint during that era. I was wearing a black top hat, with two circles coming out of each side. It was suggested that I looked around my surroundings, I couldn't see anything at all. It's as if my memory blocked the surroundings completely.

Suddenly, in front of me squatted a little boy, around the age of 6-8. He is skinny, and dirty, looking like a poor little thing with a dirty singlet and shorts and slippers. He was squatting in the moddle(or side) of the road, looking miserable. I walked up to him, wanting to pat him on the head. Suddenly, the compassion feelings for this little boy began to flood my entire body, and I begin to sob, and continue sobbing.. Until the session was over. 

I was surprised because I really did release a lot of emotions in me when I did the crying.. Of what I did not really know. I only knew I felt very heart-wrenching for the little boy. It's strange because this little bit of image in my mind was very similar to the one I had when I was asking the divine about the original of the frequent aches of my shoulders. Only that this time round, I saw myself as well. Previously, I could only see my father as a young boy. 

Right after the audio ended, there was a lot of flashbacks I had with the relationship with my father. We were not on good terms at all since I was young. But as I grew up and mature, and learnt the wise teachings of Buddha, these few years I had this very strong feeling that I should give my father the love that he never had during his childhood. The image of my shoulder aching, and this particular one that arose when I heard the audio of past life regression, fits everything. It's like many pieces of jigsaw puzzle coming together. How I grew up with his insecurities, how I learnt to overcome them, and then to spread it back to him. To spread love to him. 

The Power of Your Subconscious Mind

I just started this book. It's by Joseph Murphy.

The Essence of Bhagavad Gita

I just finished this book. The most I remember is how it describe the swattic, rajasic, and tamasic characters. We are all mixtures of these 3 gunas. 

Swattic have good behaviors, big heart, compassionate. And the food it attracts are mostly raw, vegetarian food, clean and healthy food.

Rajasic have moral behaviors that are more link to sensual feelings and behave more like businessman, as in, what advantage will one have if he/she does this? The food they attract are those strong, pungent, spicy, lamb, fish and fowl.

Tamasic have outright evil behaviors and encourage others to do evil acts and enjoy the process. The food one is attracted here is those rancid, dirty/unclean food, including those of pork, beef, insects and such.

Casual -> Astral -> Physical

The jiva, or soul, is individualized consciousness: the infinite limited to, and identified with, a body. The beginning of its existence as an individual soul comes with the casual body. The soul's further encasement in an astral body is what causes it first to manifest ego-consciousness. Identification with that body of light is what causes one to think,"I am unique and different from other beings of light." Ego-consciousness becomes further bound to objective reality when it assumes a physical body, and all it's energy is directed outward through the physical senses.

Intellect and Heart

"The intellect can see, analyze, and explain: Only the addition of the heart's feeling, however, bestows understanding." - The Essence of Bhagavad Gita

Self-Esteem

A strong self-esteem creates a healthy strong heart. Its hard to feel wonderful about a kind of love if you feel terrible about yourself.

How one experiences the world around him

"“My awareness of what happens is defining the event itself.” Identified with the intellect, they think, “I am thinking this thing through to its logical conclusion.” Finally, identified with the sense organs they think," I see; I hear; I taste; I smell; I touch. By this means I define all that I experience in the world around me."

All senses + life history = defination of experience around one

By reading this excerpt from BG, suddenly I had a thought. Really a person defines all experience by one's senses and life history up to that point. For example, if money has always been a problem, then one would be extra sensitive when it comes to money issues, whereas a person of a wealthy background probably would not think of any small money issues as problems at all.

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Poem - Nature

As I gaze above my monitor,

Busy from my work to take a breather,

I look out into the tops of the big tree in front of my office,

How gently the wind caress the leaves!

How soft and comfortable is the wind on the faces of the leave.

How gentle and all compassing is nature.

Ever so gently caress us, loving us.

We are all ONE.

My aspiration

My aspiration is to awaken people's true nature.. help people grow, to discover their true selves and identities. Especially to those who find it hard to cross over from science to dharma. I will make that bridge connect. :)

DVD - I am listening to...

I quite strange last week when I was sick, I kept thinking that I want to go to Lapis Lazuli, and there is SOMETHING there that I need to get. I got this audio disc immediately when I went there and borrowed it.

What this speaks about, is how constantly we are exchanging our energy to matter in our body (4th chakra) all the time. And to the unconscious, how we always change gold to lead in certain ways we think, like issues about "I am always right" etc, and how it manifests into matter (literally) as cysts in our wombs and etc. 

The first half of our lives are to learn how to change energy into matter (in controlled form). Like how to control matter a.k.a. controlling and manifesting money.

The second half of our lives we have to learn how to change the matter back into energy (lead into gold), dissolving those issues that cause lead to weigh down in our body. For each extra pound of lead that is formed in our body, we have to wait another month for the changes to take place. And it goes down the chakra. From the top down(8th chakra), anything that is manifested into lead, is added unto the 7th chakra. If at the 7th chakra its not dissolved, then it goes down to the 6th chakra, waiting for meltdown. And down it goes.

Spiritual Alchemy

This audio talks about exactly what I have been getting insights about.

The last blog I said about how huge amount of energy is condensed into very small matter (material form) and thus nothing is ever a coincidence because even small things need vast amount of energy to manifest.

This audio talks exactly about that.

I have been getting this strange feeling of how huge energy transformed into matter in our body, in our lives, in the universe, but am not sure exactly how. This CD actually shows me how energy is being transformed into lead in our bodies. And perhaps, that is all because the universe is a hologram in our brain right? :)

It talks about how the energy is transformed into material (gold into lead) and that it literally transform into illness in the creative chakra (laboratory).

The example given is this:

Some of us have memory control issues. That is, for example, one like to argue about how things REALLY happened.This type of memory control issues changes from gold(energy) to lead (in the creative chakra) and literally manifests into an illness (cysts, for example).

What is the purpose of our fleshly body?

When we reincarnate in our fleshly body, is to do things. Without with, we will be pure energy. And cannot have contact with the material existence. Thus it is said that attachments and karmic links are the things that keep us reincarnating, lifetime after lifetime.

Spiritual to material (E=MC2)

The other day I was watching how Einstein discovered E=MC2. 

From the above formula, 

Mass = great amount of energy.

That's why anything that is spiritually gathered (energy), will percolate down to the physical level (mass)(Will bypass emotions and mental level first before going onto the physical plane). If we see physical things happening like long term illness, it's usually great amt of energy stored over many lifetimes that has vast amt of energy that percolates down to the (little/mass) e.g. illness we see.

Thus karma is really, energy itself!

No really, I mean karma is the "E" inside "E=MC2".

If the energy is vast enough, we will see the little "M" (mass) that is condensed, which are our physical world.

When we reincarnated as human body, we have mass. And that shows our spiritual energy have transformed into mass (specifical), awaiting for immediate lessons and manifestations of all kinds. As if spiritual energy is not resolved it will percolate into the emotions level, if still not dissolved will percolate down to the physical level.

And when spiritual things percolates to a physical level in our life, it's due to a HUGE amt of certain karmic(energy) condensed into mass form. All these are in the formula of Einstein's E=MC2!

So when we go thru certain things in our life; there is no coincidences coz only vast amt of energy can it be condensed into physical form, and every event in our life is due to big amt of energy, even small events require huge amt of energy to trigger it to happen.

It's like a big jigsaw puzzle fitting all tog w science!

It's indeed the most amazing theory a scientist have ever published.

Note: Speed of light is the maximum speed that anything can travel in a galaxy. U push and give more energy but that's the max speed. So the extra energy becomes mass instead.

The middle way

The other day I had the sudden thought. I saw a really fat person and quite small feet. Poor feet, that has to support that amount of weight everyday, 24/7. So too fat causes too much weight that is bad for the feet. Okok. So let's lessen it by half.. So the lesser the body weighs the better it is for the legs. But then again... If the body is too thin, it becomes malnutrition. The feet doesnt have the strength to carry its body. So the body cannot be too thin and cannot be too fat. It has to be just right, in order for the feet to function properly.. The Middle Way... Wow.. Our body itself is a great example of it. Our whole life, we are constantly learning to balance our body. Not too fat, not too thin, not too hot, not too cold. Not too hungry not too full.. 

 I din realized until now, that our body has been teaching us the middle way ever since we were born. Something that we see, touch and feel everyday.. But we don't have the wisdom to recognize it. 

Buddha is so amazingly wise when he pointed out - The Middle Way. 3 simple words. Amazing wisdom. Truly amazing. Wow.

Found a scienctific way to explain the mysterious process of past lifes

The physical body is a direct expression of the astral bodies, the causal bodies, and the spiritual bodies which underlie and interpenetrate the physical form.

As the past-life information encoded in the subtle particulate matter of the finer bodies percolates into the physical form, the physical body receives its past-life-driven mandate to look and act in ways that carry out its ancient destiny.