Monday, December 31, 2012

2013 New Year's Goals

1) Settle my current situation in 2013.
2) Have a fantastic relationship with my love one.
3) Learn Korean.
4) Learn French.
5) Visit Tibet.
6) Go Paris!~!
7) Get $500 per month dividends
8) Exercise and get to 43.5kg weight.
9) Chant 500 Om Tare Tu Tare Ture Soha and meditate 15 mins a day.
10) Publish a book.
11) Draw 5 paintings! :))
12) Less idle chatting.

Tuesday, December 25, 2012

Review of my Goals of 2012



This is an extract from my 2012 goals blog.


Here are my money generating goals:


1) Do an app. - nope.
2) Achieve $500 per month passive income by 31st December 2012.- so far manage to get $250 passive income. It is still far from my initial $500 per month goal though.
3) A wonderful m... - definitely not!
4) Publish an ebook. - I did not manage to achieve this as well. Oh well!
5) Invent a good solar energy device. - hahaah I was too ambitious. LOLOL. But its good to dream ya? :P
6) Do a fantastic reel. - hmm I did not do this.. Maybe I don't really want to stay in the industry anymore.
7) Learn Korean language. - this I did a little bit. I am beginning to understand a little of their language, parts and pieces.


So overall I did not complete any of the goals that I set for this year! How disappointing! The only one that I actually kind of did complete half is my dividends goal. Every day I try and remind myself on this one goal. Perhaps next year I will be able to achieve it. :)


I will set next year 2013 goals in a couple of days. And I will continue to polish myself up to complete my goals.

Mani Retreat 2012



I've just finished the Mani Retreat on 2012. But I don't feel very different. Just that I do feel more relax and more clear on my thoughts after the entire retreat. However, I don't feel the 'happiness' that I felt last year. I think too many mind boggling thoughts throughout the entire meditation time. Next time during the retreat I will sit individually. I find its easier for me to concentrate, and during break times I can chant a bit more and read some books instead of chatting all the way. : )

Sunday, December 16, 2012

Groggy

Dunno why recently I feel so groggy. Since starting from yesterday.

Its like I dont feel like doing anything and my mind is foggy and clogged with heavy stuff.
I wonder if it is because of the alignment of 21st December 2012.

Sunday, December 09, 2012

Ven Yin Shun



Hmm... Recently I am starting to feel things that surprises me a little...

Last Tuesday, 4th December I went for a spirtual sharing session. And my teacher just came back from Taiwan. And she shared with us the one year commemeration of the Venerable Yin Shun who passed away one year ago. When I saw the video of him, showing his pictures, there was one particular picture (shown above), that touched my heart. Actually, its more like it pains my heart to see him. I was feeling bizzare, since I have never seen him before, even though he was an extremely reputable monk.

That night, my teacher asked us how we feel when we saw his video (they were singing his poems about Buddhist refuge), and I answered her saying I felt a heartache when I saw one of his pictures.
She asked me why I felt it, but I was too shy to tell her.

Honestly, when I saw him in the picture above, there was a feeling that I could identify with. Something about a sad childhood. And when I see the picture, it felt like I was seeing him when he is young, around 4 - 6  years old or even younger?, praying in the exact same posture, asking to be relieved from his pain/ sadness. Or maybe releasing pain from his parents, or wanting more love? Not sure what he is praying for, but I could literally 'feel' his earnesty and innocent praying.. that pains my heart to see. It is a feeling that I could instantly indentify with.

The Friday I went again for another session, but this time round I was the only one from Tuesday, the rest haven't seen the video before. As my teacher was playing the video for all to see again, after which she asked me again why I felt heartache that day on Tuesday.

I hesitated for a while to say anything, because my guess of his childhood might be too assumptious to begin with, and he is such a respectable monk, I feel that its not right of me to say anything about him without knowing his background. But my teacher kept pressing, and said that its okie. I just say whatever comes to mind. So in the end, after some persuasion from her, I told her how I felt. Well, not entirely, but I just asked if he had a sad childhood.

She replied that she saw his biography, and that he was very sickly since young. Only after he found his spiritual support, that he grew more and more healthy.

hmmm...

7th December 2012?

Don't know why on 7th December 2012, I keep thinking that its an important date. Hmm...
Maybe next time I will find out..

Sunday, December 02, 2012

Energy Medicine

I'm reading this book call the Energy Medicine.
Its pretty interesting. Right now, I'm usually using the K27 meridian points to tap my energy flow forward. I suspect that my energy is now flowing backwards, coz as mentioned in the book, running and walking forward makes one feel really exhuasted when one's energy is flowing backwards. Reading backwards and running backwards in this case could energize the person instead! And briskly tapping the K27 points (1 inch right below the collar bone points below the neck) can help change the energy forward.