Monday, December 31, 2012

2013 New Year's Goals

1) Settle my current situation in 2013.
2) Have a fantastic relationship with my love one.
3) Learn Korean.
4) Learn French.
5) Visit Tibet.
6) Go Paris!~!
7) Get $500 per month dividends
8) Exercise and get to 43.5kg weight.
9) Chant 500 Om Tare Tu Tare Ture Soha and meditate 15 mins a day.
10) Publish a book.
11) Draw 5 paintings! :))
12) Less idle chatting.

Tuesday, December 25, 2012

Review of my Goals of 2012



This is an extract from my 2012 goals blog.


Here are my money generating goals:


1) Do an app. - nope.
2) Achieve $500 per month passive income by 31st December 2012.- so far manage to get $250 passive income. It is still far from my initial $500 per month goal though.
3) A wonderful m... - definitely not!
4) Publish an ebook. - I did not manage to achieve this as well. Oh well!
5) Invent a good solar energy device. - hahaah I was too ambitious. LOLOL. But its good to dream ya? :P
6) Do a fantastic reel. - hmm I did not do this.. Maybe I don't really want to stay in the industry anymore.
7) Learn Korean language. - this I did a little bit. I am beginning to understand a little of their language, parts and pieces.


So overall I did not complete any of the goals that I set for this year! How disappointing! The only one that I actually kind of did complete half is my dividends goal. Every day I try and remind myself on this one goal. Perhaps next year I will be able to achieve it. :)


I will set next year 2013 goals in a couple of days. And I will continue to polish myself up to complete my goals.

Mani Retreat 2012



I've just finished the Mani Retreat on 2012. But I don't feel very different. Just that I do feel more relax and more clear on my thoughts after the entire retreat. However, I don't feel the 'happiness' that I felt last year. I think too many mind boggling thoughts throughout the entire meditation time. Next time during the retreat I will sit individually. I find its easier for me to concentrate, and during break times I can chant a bit more and read some books instead of chatting all the way. : )

Sunday, December 16, 2012

Groggy

Dunno why recently I feel so groggy. Since starting from yesterday.

Its like I dont feel like doing anything and my mind is foggy and clogged with heavy stuff.
I wonder if it is because of the alignment of 21st December 2012.

Sunday, December 09, 2012

Ven Yin Shun



Hmm... Recently I am starting to feel things that surprises me a little...

Last Tuesday, 4th December I went for a spirtual sharing session. And my teacher just came back from Taiwan. And she shared with us the one year commemeration of the Venerable Yin Shun who passed away one year ago. When I saw the video of him, showing his pictures, there was one particular picture (shown above), that touched my heart. Actually, its more like it pains my heart to see him. I was feeling bizzare, since I have never seen him before, even though he was an extremely reputable monk.

That night, my teacher asked us how we feel when we saw his video (they were singing his poems about Buddhist refuge), and I answered her saying I felt a heartache when I saw one of his pictures.
She asked me why I felt it, but I was too shy to tell her.

Honestly, when I saw him in the picture above, there was a feeling that I could identify with. Something about a sad childhood. And when I see the picture, it felt like I was seeing him when he is young, around 4 - 6  years old or even younger?, praying in the exact same posture, asking to be relieved from his pain/ sadness. Or maybe releasing pain from his parents, or wanting more love? Not sure what he is praying for, but I could literally 'feel' his earnesty and innocent praying.. that pains my heart to see. It is a feeling that I could instantly indentify with.

The Friday I went again for another session, but this time round I was the only one from Tuesday, the rest haven't seen the video before. As my teacher was playing the video for all to see again, after which she asked me again why I felt heartache that day on Tuesday.

I hesitated for a while to say anything, because my guess of his childhood might be too assumptious to begin with, and he is such a respectable monk, I feel that its not right of me to say anything about him without knowing his background. But my teacher kept pressing, and said that its okie. I just say whatever comes to mind. So in the end, after some persuasion from her, I told her how I felt. Well, not entirely, but I just asked if he had a sad childhood.

She replied that she saw his biography, and that he was very sickly since young. Only after he found his spiritual support, that he grew more and more healthy.

hmmm...

7th December 2012?

Don't know why on 7th December 2012, I keep thinking that its an important date. Hmm...
Maybe next time I will find out..

Sunday, December 02, 2012

Energy Medicine

I'm reading this book call the Energy Medicine.
Its pretty interesting. Right now, I'm usually using the K27 meridian points to tap my energy flow forward. I suspect that my energy is now flowing backwards, coz as mentioned in the book, running and walking forward makes one feel really exhuasted when one's energy is flowing backwards. Reading backwards and running backwards in this case could energize the person instead! And briskly tapping the K27 points (1 inch right below the collar bone points below the neck) can help change the energy forward.

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

Time, Space and Karma

The other day I was listening to a dharma disc by a guy. And he mentioned something that kinda blew my mind away.

He said that all karmic actions - results happens at an instant.
Meaning that karmic actions and results happen instantly.

So I thought: "Is that true?? If so, then why do we see it at different times?"

This guy said that actually time and spaces doesn't exists. What made it exists is actually our 烦恼,分别 and 执着。 Which means, our worries, differentiation and attachment caused us to have an illusion that there is time and space. Wow. This is good! 好东西~!Lol.

For example, if I inject a needle in my arm, I will feel the pain almost immediately. This shows us there is cause and effect in action (karmic action).

If I inject a needle into someone else's arm, I'll probably would not feel pain right?
So how come he says that karmic actions and results are an instant?

Actually we will feel pain (karmic result) from the other person sooner or later. As its delayed by our worries, differentiation and attachment, which manifest as time and space, when the result happens, we cannot connect the result with the cause before. And thus we remain confused about what triggered such a result! What a confused way to live!

But if one is with all as one body, he/she will feel the pain immediately.
Just like how the Buddha always have compassion for the sentient beings, as he feel the pain the sentient beings go through.

That explains why an arahat, someone who has gained enlightenment and no longer bounded by the six realms and birth and death cycle, doesn't create anymore karma. Because he no longer has attachment, and sees karmic results in an instant. To an arahat, time and space is no longer there. And thus he can see 500 past lifetimes of a person as stated in the scriptures. All these information when pieced together makes absolute sense!

I'm in constant awed of the teachings of Buddha. I'm at the tippest tip of an iceberg.

Gorgonzola Pizza

Hi there,

Yesterday I made a gorgonzola pizza.



Here is the recipes that I used for the dough:

DOUGH


http://allrecipes.com/recipe/pizza-dough-iii/

1 (0.25 ounce) package active dry yeast
1 cup warm water (110 degrees F/45 degrees C)
2 cups bread flour
2 tablespoons olive oil
1 teaspoon salt
2 teaspoons white sugar

Directions

  1. In a small bowl, dissolve yeast in warm water. Let stand until creamy, about 10 minutes.
  2. In a large bowl, combine 2 cups bread flour, olive oil, salt, white sugar and the yeast mixture; stir well to combine. Beat well until a stiff dough has formed. Cover and rise until doubled in volume, about 30 minutes. Meanwhile, preheat oven to 350 degrees F (175 degrees C).
  3. Turn dough out onto a well floured surface. Form dough into a round and roll out into a pizza crust shape. Cover with your favorite sauce and toppings and bake in preheated oven until golden brown, about 20 minutes.
Note: I added some garlic power and Majoram for taste. :)

TOPPINGS


http://allrecipes.com/recipe/caramelized-onion-and-gorgonzola-pizza/

1/8 cup butter
2 large Vidalia onions, thinly sliced
2 teaspoons sugar
1 (10 ounce) package refrigerated pizza dough
1 pound Gorgonzola cheese, crumbled

Directions

  1. In a large saute pan, melt butter over medium heat. Saute onions in butter until the onions are soft and dark brown, approximately 25 minutes. Stir in sugar, and continue cooking for 1 or 2 more minutes.
  2. Preheat oven to 425 degrees F (220 degrees C).
  3. Grease a pizza pan or cookie sheet, and press out the dough to desired thickness. Spread onions evenly over the dough, and top with crumbled Gorgonzola.
  4. Bake for 10 to 12 minutes, or until done.
Note: For this I added quite a few things on my own.

 

1. Oyster mushrooms


Oyster mushroom - washed and cut into small pieces.
Minced Garlic
Teriyaki Sauce
Soya Sauce

1. Marinate the oyster mushroom with teriyaki and soya sauce.
2. Fry the garlic till golden brown.
3. Add the oyster mushroom in and simmer for 10 mins or until sauce is boiling.
4. Put in bowl for later toppings.

2. Tomato sauce


2 ripe tomato - cut into quarter pieces
2 teaspoons of sugar
2 dashes of tomato
1/5 cup of water
Balsamic vinegar
Salt and pepper

1. Put all the ingredients into a pot and cover it. Stirring occasionally until the tomatos soften and the sauce is done.
2. Put on dough for taste.

3. Eggplant


1. Cut eggplant into slices. Marinate with Teriyaki sauce.
2. Put on pizza as toppings.

Overall the gorgonzola pizza turned out great. The cameralised onions, cheese, mushrooms, eggplant were all delicious. Actually it turned out better then I have expected. The side crust was good, however, the bottom part is very soft. :(

Somehow my oven didn't light up its bottom heated rod.. so the top was very crispy (which is nice) but the bottom is too soft!

I will check out my oven again to see if its user problem! Lol. :P


Monday, October 22, 2012

Sacred Contracts


I just finished listening to the audio disc of Sacred Contracts. Very interesting. It talks about how before our birth we had already had contracts with certain people to give us certain awakening. Be it good or bad events. Give me another angle on my life's events. Hmm..

It also talks about how archetypes run beneath our subconsious and actually runs our lives.
So I'm now reading a its book, Sacred Contracts and trying to find out my own archetype.
I will update later when I found mine. Hehe.. : )

Sunday, October 21, 2012

Rule#1 - Philip Town


Recently I finished read a book given to me by a dear friend. Really good book. It talks about how to calculate a business's financial status, and whether it is worth it to invest in today. The bargain price to go in, and the expensive price to get out.

I have learnt the most of value investing from this book then any other book actually. And its simple and easy to to do the calculations. :)

Monday, October 01, 2012

Relationships - making it more fun

About half a year ago, I was in really bad relationship situation.. we were in really bad shape, both of us were angry with each other, one passive aggressive and one aggressive - I think anyone in relationships would know what it means right?

Meaning I was the angry one and getting angry and I was not getting any response from him (passive aggressive). Which in turn makes things worse.. because we were getting angry with one another, but it was never solved and everything just keep snowballing. And we grew more distant from one another, and it just became worse and worse.

To the point where I would be crying.. and he would just ignore me completely.
Is this a relationship that I would want to salvage? Yes and no.

I really wonder why I am in such bad relationships for such a long time, and I begin to look outward for solutions. At this time, I also unknowingly started my spiritual journey to find out about people, energies and also what I am lacking (it takes courage to admit, but I do realized that I am lacking quite a bit in the feminine department).

And oh boy, that was SOME journey.
And its still continuing.

This was part of my journey:

http://ef7fdwk7zdx6bz3d2pzjq4zymy.hop.clickbank.net/?tid=BEERISHBLOG

I came upon this website by chance. At that point of time I was thinking.. "Another internet gimmick that takes my money and gives me nothing."

But then again, another thought came to mind. I practically spent my whole life in disastrous relationships.. no harm spending some money to find out what I am lacking.. anyways I buy clothes and all spend hundreds of dollars, to decorate my body - and still have disastrous relationships. So why not try something new, something that goes inwards me, so that I can learn how to create wonderful relationships?

"Okie. Maybe I just try 1 time. $47usd. If its no good, I'm outta the internet products world."

Oh surprised! This guy actually is brutally honest! And the emails he sent out after I purchased the products are really enlightening! I realized how silly I was sometimes. And he is really good. The answers that he emails back to the questions he get from his subscribers. I really learnt a lot from him.

Not all internet products are gimmicks after all. Apparently some of them really do make a lot of sense. And taught me a lot of things. The program is interesting. But to me the most interesting thing is the emails that Mike sends out after that. A lot of question and answers, and I really really get to hear from a honest guy point of view.

Its really enlightening. Really. I cant post it out here because I could be fringing on his rights to his own products. But I do recommend girls who get confused about guys to get this. Its definitely worth more then the $47usd tag. :)

After this one, I saw another one. Since Micheal Fiore is a guy, I thought that it would be interesting to hear from a female perspective. And the first one was a good buy obviously. So I wanted to try another one and learn more. For this, I will post in another blog. :)

Friday, September 28, 2012

The Middle Way

Hi there.. I haven't been updating this blog recently. Been really busy catching up with everything and also dealing with my confusions as well...

The middle way.

The other day I had the sudden thought. I saw a really fat person and quite small feet. Poor feet, that has to support that amount of weight everyday, 24/7. So too fat causes too much weight that is bad for the feet. Okok. So let's lessen it by half.. So the lesser the body weighs the better it is for the legs. But then again... If the body is too thin, it becomes malnutrition. The feet doesnt have the strength to carry its body. So the body cannot be too thin and cannot be too fat. It has to be just right, in order for the feet to function properly.. The Middle Way... Wow.. Our body itself is a great example of it. Our whole life, we are constantly learning to balance our body. Not too fat, not too thin, not too hot, not too cold. Not too hungry not too full.. 

 I didn't realized until now, that our body has been teaching us the middle way ever since we were born. Something that we see, touch and feel everyday.. But we don't have the wisdom to recognize it. 

Buddha is so amazingly wise when he pointed out - The Middle Way. 3 simple words. Amazing wisdom. Truly amazing. Wow.

Thursday, July 12, 2012

AsiaWorks - Basic Training Course - Day 2

I just had my second day of training. It was very good. Very empowering and more powerful then the first day. If I can spare the cash, I want to go to the Advance training... However... right now my funds are really important for me to reach my goals this year end - $500 dividends per month.

I was so tired when I reach home after the course yesterday, that my eyes were stinging my red. Thus I did not eat the beancurd that my boyfriend gave me. After he sent me back and left, I was already lying on the bed, wanting to fall asleep immediately, but I thought that I should send a thank-you message to him.

"But I'm so tired... " I think. "I really don't want to move an inch. Maybe it'll be okay if I say thank you tommorrow.."

Suddenly I recall back to the speaker where he empowers us and that we have full responsibility of our own life choices, so with one summoning of strength, I decided to climb back up, and sent him a thank-you message. I decided to take up the responsibility of nuturing this relationship to a fantastic one. This is the power of taking up responsibility/ownership. I've taken my first little step. Hopefully I can constantly remind myself.

"I have full responsibility of my life choices."

What a wonderful world! :)

Wednesday, July 11, 2012

AsiaWorks - Basic Training Course - Day 1

Yesterday I just attended a course call Basic Training Course. Sounds ambiguous right? LOL.

Well, honestly when I attended the course yesterday I did not know what the course was all about. Even though I already paid $1300 for it! LOL.

I met a fren about 2 weeks ago for catch up coffee and I pleasantly found out that he was going through the same inner balancing phrase as I did since last year (we havent caught up for a long while... perhaps a year plus?). He started abit earlier then me though. Well, anyways, he saw that I'm also in this phrase, and he keep suggesting that I attended this course. Hell, I filled in the objectives form at the back, then he turn the sheet around for me to fill in my particulars! Hahaha. That's how excited he was. And he has been through all of the 3 courses. Basic, Advanced, and Leadership.

Interestingly, the speaker talks about limiting subconscious beliefs and there was this lady who stood up to say that she would not be able to attend the course due to a lot of work. So he asked her if she would be open to attend it if she has the chance to, and she say she would consider but now is not possible because she has so much work. While he was empowering her to make the choices neccesary for attending this course, she got angry and said that she dont have a choice and considering the attendance for the course is out of the question. While he try to empower her more, she said she cant do anything about it because she said that she is her bosses's bitch. NOW, Gene (the speaker) definitely knows that there is problem in that belief... I saw it too.. And Gene continued to grill her and empower her, saying that she can find a way to deal with it. Maybe there really was not a way out of her work. Or maybe she can prioritise her work to fit in the course. Either way, if she really wants to, she will. But she got angry (she was already angry from the beginning.) and started to accuse Gene of judging her (hey... she was the first one to say she was someone else's bitch ya know.. if you dont want others to judge you, you don't say that of yourself first!) and Gene abruptly stopped the conversation short and ended it. Later when those who cannot attended the course she stood up quickly and made the administration to quit the course.

Actually its a pity and I feel that, even though she actually needs this course very much (she was actually believing she is her bosses bitch -now that is some serious subconscious belief to deal with) but she is not ready for this change yet. Or rather, she wants to continue to be her bosses bitch. Which is quite apparent, as she is giving all reasons why she should continue in this situation. Its a very self-abusive, negative situation. I dont want to be in that situation. I want to empower myself and be empowered. That needs me to be open and vunerable in order to progress.

My goal: To be strong and firm yet soft. What does it take to reach there? To be this person that I want to be. It would need me to have strong inner voice. I need to let it out. Without that acertainity of inner know self, I cannot be strong and firm about the daily desicions in my life. Inner knowself will also help me to be soft because I know my own self worth and what Im willing to give out. So when I am soft, I am honestly genuine about it.

Thursday, July 05, 2012

Stocks - Fragrance

Bought Fragrance at 0.495 (4 lots) due to insider news (although I know that when I bought in I'm alrady late but just wanted to try out the insider news) but after AGM on 3rd July it didnt go up.

So sold it off again at 0.495 losing on trading fees only. Im taking this test to insider news as a failed attempt.
Oh well.

Wednesday, July 04, 2012

Strange dream

I had a dream this morning, it was a strange dream.

A guy wanted to bring me to the netherworld, and to talk to the guardian of hell there, like the book of life, and say that my fate should be changed, because I did not do much bad deeds this lifetime.

And the guy say that they make mistakes all the time, and my fate will be reset to a better one in the future.
I woke up feeling weird and at the same time happy. Hehe.

Coincidentally, I signed up for a AsiaWorks course just yesterday, on 4th July 2012. US Independence Day. I think I must be an angmo last life. LOL.

Maybe its a sign that a good change is coming. :)))

Tuesday, June 26, 2012

Book review - Making your first Million - Micheal Leong

This is is basically a fundamental value investing book. I learn some trading philosophy from him.
He started up ShareInvestment and subsequently sold it off to SPH, making good profits on selling the biz.

His experience in the investment field is much likely to be anamoured, as he did achieve success in this investment.

However, there is one point where I still struggle to accept, is that there are not only buying, but also selling as well. Maybe my stocks hasnt trigger the selling points yet, so I do not have the feeling of selling at all.

But I often wonder, if I don't sell at all, and ride out the economic crisis, then I will not be able to capitalise on the fall of the stock market. Though I will still be buying in. This is one scenario that I always ponder and haven't yet find a solution about. Hmmm...

BreadTalk Sold!

On 27th June 2012, I sold BreakTalk at $0.49 and making a total profit of $39 after all the commission was deducted. Lol. My initial target was $0.56 and a profit of $510. But guess I still wasn't patient enough for capital gains stocks. And Breadtalk didn't seem like it was going to grow. I was simply capitalising on its fall in price and its fundamental strength to rebounce back. Lol.

Well eventually Breadtalk will grow back, but I'll rather put it in someplace that is either faster, or has more long term growth potential. I don't really like to buy and sell, buy and sell. Lazy. :P

Still looking around for more stocks to go in for long term.
Probably Second Chance Properties or OKP. :)

Book review - Think and Grow Rich by Napolean Hill

This book is wonderful. I learnt so many things from this book.

It talked about MasterMind Alliance, which is to have superb relationship with the people around you, thus making your own dreams possible with faith and confidence.

Inside the book there is alot of teachings, all of whom impressed me the most is the chapter on the Art of Sex Transmutation. This chapter strongly suggests that sex itself is an energy, reproductive energy. And by reproductive energy, it is a life force, which represents action. Its so strong, that if one knows how to channel it into good use, the result is tremendous and amazing.

I also like the chapter of invisible counsellors, where the real life story told is so amazing yet I can truly feel that it is true.

Everything in the book goes in line with the teachings of Buddhism. So for me, I find it fairly easy to understand. And everything makes a perfect circle of understanding. :)

So I really recommend this book to anyone who wants a better understanding of life and how it works.
Coz this book is simply amazing. :)

Friday, June 01, 2012

Breadtalk

The other day when I was sick at home and diablo server was down, 22nd May 2012, I went to buy in 6 lots of BreadTalk stock at $0.475 each. Now present price is $0.48. According to the historical price chart, it seems to be at the bare support level. And my longest time frame is 3 months max, so it's by around 22nd August that I will sell of this stock. Price target is $0.56 (around 20% returns). I only set aside $3000 for capital gains stocks investment to try it out first.

Cross my fingers and wish my luck! :)

Wednesday, May 30, 2012

Whimsyshire!

http://soe.hubpages.com/hub/Whimsyshire-The-Secret-Pony-Level-Guide-Diablo-3#

Got my Black Mushrooms today after 9 runs of Cathedral Level 1 (2 hrs) ! :D

E = Mc2

Sorry for not having come in and updating this blog for sometime. Diablo 3 just came out on 15th May, and I kinda stopped all activities to fully concentrate on this game. Brings back nostalgic feelings as I played D2 extensively. Hehe. Now that I'm level 60, can relak abit. Lol.

I chanced upon a video about Einstein today. And it talks about his life and his most famous equation : E = Mc2. Now I've heard about this equation a zillion times and never knew what it really meant. But today I finally know, E = Energy, M = mass/matter and C2 = Speed of light x speed of light.

Its so intriguing, as in the video, it talked of Einstein, who, was one day sitting in a train, and wondered what it would be like, if the train he that was sitting on, was traveling at the speed of light. In his vision, to his amazement, on an old famous clock that he was passing by, the hands stood still. It means, that, at the speed of light, time stood still. This is so interesting! Because I remember that I read or heard somewhere, that if you travel faster than the speed of light, time actually goes backwards. This goes to show that space is relative to time.

More interestingly, in Buddha's context, space and time is bendable. They are illusions, and in actual fact, they actually do not exist. He talks about dimensions, and that different dimensions have different time zones. For example, in Hell realm, 1 day, is around human life time. Probably around 70 - 80 years of earth's time. But for the heavens, half a year, is around human time, centuries.

Linking all these up, I suddenly realized that Napoleon Hill's words of vibration of thought was referring to all these! Vibration of thought, actually is also energy. And different vibrations of thought/energy would have produced different images of matter, matter here being constant, but the images varies. And this, in return, created different dimensions as mentioned by the Buddha. If I am not wrong, many scientists have already found out that on earth, there are actually 4 -5 dimensions occurring at the same time. For example, in one of the scriptures, it was written that, we, would see water as liquid, gaseous air and ice. Deity/ Bodhisattva/ Buddha, would on the other hand, see it as crystal. As they say, that the heavens are clad in precious jewels and stones. Ghosts and spirits actually see water as blood. It apparently applies to tastes as well. Now I am beginning to understand why this is so.

Everything that is on earth, is energy and matter (as quoted by Napoleon Hill). Vibrations of thought are essentially energy. E = Mc2.

Means Energy = Matter x Speed of light x speed of light.

If vibrations of thought are energy, and what we see, need light to translate into our eyes in order for our minds to register the picture, then, Matter, which is picture in this sense, would variate, according to the level or type of energy in the vibration of thought, assuming that the speed of light is constant. So if this theory is proven right, then it would only be logical that different people with different vibrations of thought, would have visions that varies from one to another.

Actually this equation can be best seen in Solar Panels. Solar is light, and solar panels transforms light into energy. E = Mc2. We have Energy and C (which is speed of light) in solar panels. As I mention earlier, if C is constant, then E and M will be variant. (And actually M, matter, will be really small in volume.) Since time and space is relative to energy ( E = Mc2 there is energy and speed of light in the equation), and solar energy is mainly transforming light and heat into energy, I would assume that if light can transform into energy, it is actually capturing kinetic energy. And not just light. Because photons (light particles) travels in the speed of light to the solar panel, and the panel captures, not just the particles, but actually, the energy in the speed of light itself, which is kinetic, and transform it into energy stored for later use. If speed of light can be captured, or rode upon, then, as Einstein envisioned, Time can be stopped, slowed down, and even go backwards. So if time can go backwards, then space can be bent as well, since Time and Space are relatives. If Time stops, then Space would change too. So is it possible that a Time Machine lies in the mechanics of Solar Panel? If our mind clear to its purest form, where it returns itself into pure form of energy, would we be able to travel 'faster' then the speed of light, and discover our past lives like many people who do in Vipassana Meditation? Notice that I hypen the word 'faster' as I do not know the relative term for light used here.
All these are just my thoughts and I want to document it down before its gone. Its funny but I'm getting all sorts of 'hunches' nowadays. Its like my mind is opened, and all sorts of information comes in. The world is getting more and more interesting. : D

Interesting footnote: C, which is speed of light, is a huge number. C2, which is Csquared is a even bigger number. Imagine that C2 in E=Mc2 is such a huge number. Can you see how small M (matter) is?
They say that if the Empire Building in New York is being teared down, and the spaces between the atoms are taken out so that only the actual matter remains, it would not be bigger than a grain of rice in the hand!

Friday, May 18, 2012

Connection in growing up environment + a person's mind

Today I just posted this in Facebook:

"A person's growing up environment, will greatly, greatly, shape his/her mentality, subconscious beliefs and outlook in life. Any negative traits will have to be changed through constant awareness (outside and inside) and understanding of oneself, and great effort to transform the genetic beliefs that are deeply rooted in one's subconscious mind."


Today I have this sudden awareness, or realization, that a person's growing up environment, actually shapes the entire person's thinking and mindset, values, and whatever that is important in life.

My colleagues had a small difference of opinions during lunch today. One of them say that being financially able to support the entire family every weekend to have good meals in restaurants, and financially free, is one trait of being successful. But the other colleague didn't agree with him. He says that eating good meals and being rich, is not a way to state whether one is successful at all. They were at odds with one another.

While the one that feels richness is a successful trait is confused about why the other person wouldn't think so too, I casually mentioned that the other guy, come from a rather wealthy Indonesian family. He probably sees and knows dozens of rich friends, who maybe are lazy, but are rich. And naturally, he would not think that they are successful. And eating at restaurants and paying for whole family of 6, is already a common sight and a must-do to him, that he hardly consider this anything at all. 

When I said this, my colleague suddenly realized that the other guy, has a very different growing up environment, and thus thinking is obviously shaped in a different way then his. He suddenly saw that, to the other guy, because being rich is already a pre-requisite, he wouldn't consider that as anything special.

Interestingly, as he said this, I also come to another realization.

This colleague of mine, when he was young, his parents was not rich, scraping by, but definitely not rich. At a young age, he promised himself that he would earn lots of money to break this chain of poverty in his family. His whole life, he desires for wealth creation.

Whereas the other colleague, whom said richness is not a successful trait, leaves his wealthy family to work on a regular pay in Singapore, working very hard on this art and achieving quite some recognition on his artwork as an artist. His whole life is devoted to being a great artist.

We can see that each up growing environment, has greatly shaped, in fact, has shaped, almost 80% or more, one's thinking in life. Their goals has been shaped while they were young, perhaps even before they reach 10 years old. It's no wonder that they always say, that we all have our destinies planned out already before we were born.


So are we shaped for life the moment we are born?

With great awareness, one can sees this, and change at will, to whichever trait that comes from genetic sources. But there are a few conditions that I can think of right off the tip of my fingers:

1) one must be aware of oneself (thinking and actions)
2) one must be aware of the right and good principles
3) one must be impartial and open-minded to all circumstances
4) but in order to be open-minded yet upright and strong, one has to have strong basic foundations (values) as a person
5) constant coaching from enlightened beings to be opened-minded to outside factors which let one compare to inner values

Here's a case to further emphasis on this statement that I posted in facebook:

I have a friend and we got know a couple together. And she would tell me, that the guy, was ill-treating the girl in the relationship in our meetings with them. And I wondered why she said that, or that I would think she probably is a tad too sensitive, and over reacting to it as I don't feel so much to such an extent of ill-treating. Later did I realized the reason, when she told me, that before her dad married her mom, his dad actually liked another lady, but because of arranged marriages, they got married. And her whole life, she saw how her dad ill-treated her mom, that she begin to distrust men in general. She even prefer ladies to men in relationships. This subconscious belief is so deeply rooted into her subconscious mind that she has somehow, shaped her whole life to these exact conditions she saw when she was growing up.

This I believe, is a very powerful awareness. If one can have the mindfulness to be aware of one's resulted actions in life, and really sees it, one can change his/her destiny. With great effort, one can most certainly turn one's life around into the most fulfilling way to his/her own values in life.

Wednesday, May 09, 2012

My Lesson Today

My lesson today is about time accumulation.

Jim Rohn said before, that if you think that by drinking an unhealthy drink today, does not make you sick, don't be sure that years later, it will be the same.

Time accumulation.

This is so powerful. Just like my dividends, time accumulation on anything is powerful and intense. Even things that are negative, are intense.

There is this guy, when I first met him, he was young at 19 years old. I was 16 years old. I caught him lying when I saw him at snooker area, when he was suppose to be at home. We broke up after that.

8 years later, I begin meeting him again, and eventually got back together. But during the 1 1/2 years together, I was constantly being lied to. Numerous times. Til I can't remember how many times. We broke up again after that.

3 years later, somehow, we once again got back together. Silly me, how can I make the same mistake 3 times?!

The 3rd time round, I learnt something from him. The first time we broke up, when he lied, he was beginning to learn how to lie, and he didn't really know how to say sorry then.

8 years later when we got together again, he learnt to lie so well, and so often, that everything he felt he didn't want to do, or want to do but did not want me to find out, he lied about it. He never had to learn to be a better person, simply because he didn't have to. He didn't take up the responsibility for the actions that he did. So he never had to learn.

Then 3 years later, now, lying is forming his character. He has already forgotten, and has gotten to the stage of even refusal to learn how to be a better person. He is the same as 11 years ago, his mind did not improve, nor did his integrity, and his morals. He learnt to say sorry and look apologetic, but once you forgave him, he continued again. He lies about everything. You name it, he has lied about.

And I realized that every time when a person lies to cover up his mistakes, he gave up a chance to learn to be a better person. Because he didn't need to. After a year, he formed a habit of covering up whatever he did wrong by lying and never once had to try to become better. After 16 years, he never want to become a better person anymore. "What's the point? I can always lie about it. Its so much easier!"

But the thing is, this kind of behavior can never be kept for too long. It always catches up with you. Always.
Time, will always show your true character.

Saturday, May 05, 2012

"What you have at the moment, you attracted by the person you become."

"What you have at the moment, you attracted by the person you become."


Recently I heard this sentence in Jim Rohn's video. And I felt deeply for this sentence.


A few months ago, I had a sort of a spiritual experience. Its not like ghost or any of that sort.
But more like a realization.


I had this friend, who is supposedly my best friend. For a long time I don't really like hanging out with her, because I felt I was constantly being taken granted by her. And after 18 years, I decided that enough is enough. While trying to distance from her, I was dealing with the guilt of not being beside her as her friend as well. Even though I knew that she was poison friend to me, I kept her as a friend for the longest time, and even, "best friend" at that. 


It takes 2 hands to clap. I was a weak person, always being bullied. While my friend was a bully. She is demanding, and often takes things for granted. I later on realized that this is the reason why we attracted each other. Even though consciously, I know that I want good friends that are sincere, but subconsciously, because of my character, I was attracting bullies to come into my life, and as for her, as her character is like that, she was attracted to me. So our character inside us is always looking around for people in our life to be attracted to.


And even deeper then that, there is another reason.


Through a video I saw of Anthony Robbins, I realized that I had a deep subconscious belief. The only reason that I kept her so long as a friend was because I did not know how to love myself! Seriously, when I think about it, there could be no other reason, because otherwise, why else would you keep someone who, constantly brings you down so they can be high up, close to you? It doesn't even make sense at all. 


And I realized that, my deep subconscious belief is because of what happened in my early childhood. When very young at about less then 1 year old to 4 years old, I was taken care of by another relative, and I was really badly neglected. Most kids at 0 ~ 4 years old get the most attention from their parents, which enable them to have this deep inner sense of self-cherishing attitude. But the lack of that during those years, had made me somewhat different even without me realizing it.


And I also came to realized that early childhood is so important. I didn't even realized that subconsciously I was not loving myself. But now that I came to be aware of this, so many things start to make sense. I chose, or rather let people who don't know how to love me to stay by my side. Even though I was unhappy and I try to break away, but eventually I was always led back by their sweet words or my own guilt of running away.

So, next time if your conscious being and your reality events does not align up, look deep into your self. There could be some subconscious self beliefs that is blocking the way, even without you realizing it.

For me, the moment I realized that I had this belief, of not cherishing myself, instantaneously the attraction between me and my friend faltered. I was no longer attracted to her. I broke the bond, because now I am aware of my own negative self belief.

It was an enlightening experience. I learnt more about myself than about anybody else for once. Because of what had formed during my childhood, I, too, had neglected myself too much and for too long.

Mindfulness of oneself and own thoughts and emotions are really amazing. I'm a Buddhist, and mindfulness has helped me to realized this part of myself. Now I understand why Buddha meditates so much and advocate this as a good method to enlightenment. Its amazing!

Wednesday, May 02, 2012



Recently I'm reading a book that a colleague lent me, called Courage to Succeed by Ruben Gonzalez.

It's a fantastic book. A true example of a man who became successful simply because of the success principles that he live by. Below is a few excerpts of this book, which I wanted to write down just to remind myself.


     "You see, a dreamer will never be understood by a non-dreamer. If a dreamer takes a non-dreamer's advice, he'll just go home, he wont do anything with his life, and ultimately die of a broken heart." 

This part is so true.. I was 17 years old when I wanted to take on animation, but because my mom had strongly opposed to it, she feels that as an artist, I cannot make any money, so even though I was accepted to the animation course that I wanted, young at 17, I allowed her opinions to be part of me, thinking that I'm not original enough (as art needs a lot of originality) to make it, and I relented after a few quarrels with her. So I did not pursue my dream of being an animator. I was aimlessly drifting about, not interested in working nor anything that is driving me much in life.This went on for whole TEN YEARS. And I did have a broken heart at that whole time. In fact, I was thinking, I was so near, but I gave up. And the fact that I couldn't do what my heart tells me was killing me slowly. Many a times, I visualized myself on deathbed, regretting my life choices. Time was slowly passing by, without me in it. And later on, after 10 years, I decided to quit my low paying job to really take on animation lessons. It wasn't easy as I did not have any source of income, only odd jobs, but I knew that I HAD to make it work, as this was my only chance at succeeding my dream of being an animator. I was 27 years old, too old to switch to careers where artists came out at 21 years old. Numerous people whom I talked to discouraged me to pursue my dreams. Even teachers who were teaching animation at that point of time discouraged me. Even my so-called best friend, one day chided me for being silly to pursue my dreams at this very old age and asked me to continue my low-paying job instead! Now thinking back, it was so ridiculous. But at that time, it was very detrimental for me. But I stood strong and believed in myself where no one else did. I'm glad I did. The deathbed regret was much bigger than failing in becoming an animator. But I realized that it could be so much easier for me if I had known to surround myself with like minded people, I would have soar even higher and faster. And happier in the process too. But I got to see who are my true friends through this.

  "Associating with negative people makes us thinks negatively. Close contact with petty individuals develops petty habits in us. On the other hand, companionship with 'big idea' type of people raises the level of our thinking. Close contact with ambitious people causes us to become more ambitious. Here's a great rule of thumb: If you're the smartest, or the most motivated person in your group, its time to find a new group."

I have quite a few good friends and colleagues who are big on inspiration and ideas. Which are great now.
But I used to come from a time where I loved to party, and many friends who partied with me, are people who don't have many dreams, who just think of partying and having fun all the time. They didn't want to suffer to be successful. They rather be comfortable and not win, and because they hadn't tried, so they didn't fail as well. At times, I feel difficult, as pursuing your dreams is already taking a lot of effort, plus what if the people beside you keep pulling you down whenever? Surrounded by these people, I tend to be lazy, and give up easily. But that's not what I want in life. I have to pull myself out from these people and surround myself with positive and encouraging people. Because.... I'm afraid I can't hold on long because of them. I can't afford that to happen. Life is short. I need to take it to the fullest. One of the ways you can surround yourself with the most successful and positive people in the world is though books (biographies) and videos (inspirational).

   "Fly with eagles, and you'll start to think, feel and act like an eagle."

   "I came to the realization that if someone laughed at my dream, they were laughing at me. if they did not believe in me, I stopped associating with them. I had to. Because they had the power to make doubt myself and, ultimately, quit."

   "Most people will react to the pursuit of your dream in three stages: First they will laugh at you: then, they will watch you; and, finally, they will begin to admire you. Don't listen to 'the dream stealers'. Follow your heart."

I see this all the time. Usually if you do persevere in your dream, they will change and later on come to ask you how you did it. Or say they admire you for doing so. So don't listen to them when they first criticize or laugh at you. Just give it time, they will turn around and say,"Wow, you really did it."

Most of the time, at the time when we give up, in reality, we are so close to victory. Now having grown up and after reading numerous inspiration books on successful people, I realized that if I had carried on wanting to go on the animation course, even though I couldn't buy the textbooks (my mom cut me off in money so I couldn't buy the animation course notes/books). If I had just persisted, and kept on attending the animation course, even without money, I'm pretty sure my mom would have given in after 2 or 3 months, when she sees me being so serious about it. But I gave up right after a few quarrels, so I really did not display any realness in wanting that dream either. These obstacles in pursuing your dreams, are to filter out the people whom are not serious in wanting that dream. After all, if life is not like this, then the whole world would be filled with successful people, and that would be nothing special about it, isn't it?

Monday, April 30, 2012

Jake Barnett Genius




http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hBW4S9xcTOk&feature=related

This guy Jake Barnett is amazing. I think his previous life is a professor of some sort.
He taught himself braille when he was 1 year old!!

This has to be karma based.
Cannot be anything else.

Who says there's no results from past lives, or that there is no such thing as reincarnation?

This boy is the full proof that there is reincarnation!
I saw this video maybe about a month ago. In the beginning was boring and long.. but once the seminar started, I got really surprised as the Grandma's life was being transformed from something that even she did not realise that before. Anthony Robbins is amazing! There, his sensitivity towards a person's source of problems was so strong, he immediately identified with the woman's problems 5 minutes into contact with her.

You have to watch it! And discover for yourself to be aware of your own character.
Its an amazing journey for her. And for me, as I watch it.

So strong and powerful.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=grYecCVtELI&list=PL309B5818ECCD1CE5&index=80&feature=plpp_video

Sunday, April 29, 2012


Here are my money generating goals: 


1) Do an app.
2) Achieve $500 per month passive income by 31st December 2012.
3) A wonderful m...
4) Publish an ebook.
5) Invent a good solar energy device.
6) Do a fantastic reel.
7) Learn Korean language.


There. Now I have put it on web. 
I better achieve it. Hehe..
Yesterday I went to a short 1 day workshop call Value Investing Foundation. It teaches PE values, etc, how to read financial sheets. I almost signed up for its actual course that teaches you to calculate the intrinsic value of the company itself. Well, the amount of money is quite heart-pain, so I can't bear to part with it... yet.

But eventually I know I will have to take this course. Unless, I can learn it from books.
Maybe I should spend more time in finding out whether I can learn from elsewhere intrinsic value of a stock rather then just sign up immediately. Transpac... doesnt seem like such a good buy after all.

But how can I achieve my goal of $500 per month passive income if I don't put it in Transpac?
Should I sell, half, all? Or put in First Reits? Which is the way where I can reach my goal by end of this year 31st Dec 2012?
Everyone has an interesting life and things that they learn along their life journey.
I'm sharing mine so that we can all learn from one another's mistakes and awareness. :)